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September 26th, 2007 by adminWhen I was 11 years old I weighed 105lbs, had a high voice, no amount of facial hair and stood only 5′3″
When I was 13 years old I weighed 105lbs, had a high voice, no amount of facial hair and stood only 5′3″
When I was 15 years old I weighed 105lbs, had a high voice, no amount of facial hair and stood only 5′3″
When I was 17 years old I weighed 105lbs, had a high voice, no amount of facial hair and stood only 5′3
Something wasn’t right. All through high school I dealt with being a prepubescent runt. When I started driving I could barely see over the steering wheel. When I got a date for the midwinter dance I stood on a small box to look taller than the girl in our pictures that were taken. For years I watched all my friends jump up a foot in height, grow beards and start singing the bass part in songs. I questioned God constantly & I begged him to give me those growth spurts everyone was talking about. But nothing happened. I felt abandoned, confused and generally pissed off at what I had to look for in not just going through another four years of school in college like this but even worse, an entire life stuck in between a child’s body and an adult’s body.
Finally my parents had me go to the doctor. Just in case I wasn’t “a late bloomer” and there was actually something wrong with me.
Amazingly enough we find out that there was something wrong with me. I wasn’t a late bloomer. I was a “no bloomer” due to a hormonal deficiency in my body. Testosterone wasn’t being created enough and therefore puberty in its fullness wasn’t kicking in. I started hormonal treatment and within weeks my voice changed. Within months I gained muscle mass. Within a year I grew 7 inches and at the end of two years I was 5′10″, 180lbs, had a deep bassy voice, a healthy helping of bodily hair and finally the image of looking like a passable adult.
Ok, so maybe I still looking a little younger than my actual age, the point is I spent nearly all of my adolescent life mad at God for trapping me in this useless body that I felt was stuck in a time warp. But me, being the retard I was am, didn’t think that God knew what was going to happen and that it was all within his plan. It was a lesson I learned and am still learning daily.
My sister and brother-in-law are goin through a difficult time right now with their lives. They are angry, confused, hurt, worried and sad all at the same time and they could use a lot of prayer to help get them through this. I don’t have the answers for what their future holds and I have even less answers as to why they are going through what they are right now but I know that my God, the God who has a master plan that nothing can escape from, loves them, wants the best for them and knows exactly what He is doing and that gives me a sense of peace that I am praying they will come to as well. I would appreciate if you would do the same and take a moment to pray for them as well and keep them in your thoughts through the day.
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